As you are probably aware if you have been reading my blog in the last 6 months, I’ve been struggling to come to terms with the tragic loss of my partner, Marie, since January. The problem I have had is I had invested all my love and attention into our relationship, she literally meant everything to me. Also, besides the emotional attachment, she had taken care of everything for us, from finances, holidays, every little detail, she was meticulous… She wanted me to concentrate on my art, such as it is.
So, not only was I emotionally devastated but also thrust into dealing with things which I had no skill or ability in dealing with, this side of things has been almost as difficult to get to grips with as the emotional turmoil.
Anyway, yesterday, as I was watering the garden, I had a revelation. Since she is no longer corporeal, there is the possibility that her spirit is in everything and or nothing, and as I don’t know if or where she might be, I can choose to see her as being in everything. Or nothing. I prefer to think she is everywhere. In which case, she is with me always. Now, I realise this is not necessarily logical, but as we can’t observe or know the spirit world beyond this mortal coil, she is in essence, a version of Scroedinger’s Cat, so exists or doesn’t exist everywhere, until she is observed.
With this dexterous use of logic, I have decided to see her everywhere until proved otherwise. This gives me some peace.
I hope it does the same for you.
Agnostic at best, I’d rather take the chance of salvation, then be as obnoxious as Richard Dawkins, who proselytizes atheism with the zeal of a Jesuit.