Will the sun ever shine again?
I don’t see how…
You made the sun gleam with wonder,
You made the world a magical place…
Now all the magic has gone,
And I am left with the nothing…
Empty pages flickering in front of my eyes.
I’m emotionally chilled to the bone,
Nothing can warm my half -soul,
But the match of yours.
A half-life in half light,
Always winter and never Christmas.
And yet it is just weeks from your smile,
And your joyful love…
Which I can never share on this plane again.
It’s the nights, always the nights,
When the yearning cannot be abated.
I wake and sob every night,
And know it will never stop.
The days can be contained by action,
But the night just drags on forever.
first time I’ve been able to look at these blogs since I wrote them, Back when grief was new and all consuming.