SOMETHING

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SOMETHING OR NOTHING

GESTATION FROM NOTHING TO SOMETHING,

NINE MONTHS AGO I HAD NOTHING…

I LOST MY BELOVED SOUL MATE

AND WITH HER, MY LIFE CRASHED AND BURNED.

I LOOKED AT THE DRUGS I HAD,

NIGHTLY, FOR MONTH I CONTEMPLATED…

THE PROMISE…

I ALWAYS SAID TO HER,

IF YOU DIE, I WILL BE ONE HEART BEAT BEHIND YOU!

SHE WOULD SMILE ENIGMATICALLY…

EASY TO SAY.

SHE KNEW I COULDN’T.

NOT BECAUSE OF FEAR,

OR LOVE OF LIFE,

BUT BECAUSE I COULDN’T

DELIBERATELY HURT MY FAMILY.

SHE KNEW ME SO WELL.

SO I WALKED IN THE WILDERNESS,

FOR LONG TERRIFYING MONTHS,

SUNK IN THE EMPTY SKULL

OF GRIEF.

AND I LOST MY HOME, MY JOB,

MY REASON TO BE.

BUT NOW I HAVE GESTATED THIS SOMETHING,

A TINY RAY OF HOPE,

STILL UNSPOKEN,

BUT SOMETHING.

I CAN SMILE, I CAN JOKE,

IN MY BLACK SURREAL WAY….

CAN I SEE A WAY?

I CAN SEE A SHIMMER IN THE MIST,

NOTHING MORE.

BUT A SHIMMER IS SOMETHING!

 

DALE BELOVED OF ‘M’

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