GOD PLAYLIST

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GOD PLAYLIST

  1. ONLY GOD KNOWS – YOUNG FATHERS
  2. DEAR GOD – XTC
  3. THE GOD SONG – UNDERWORLD
  4. IN GOD’S COUNTRY – U2
  5. THIS FEAR OF GODS – SIMPLE MINDS
  6. GOD SAVE THE QUEEN – SEX PISTOLS
  7. IF I SHOULD FALL FROM GRACE WITH GOD – THE POGUES
  8. GOD IS AN INDIAN AND YOU’RE AN ASSHOLE – MODEST MOUSE
  9. KNEEL BEFORE YOUR GOD – LEMON JELLY
  10. GOD’S GONNA CUT YOU DOWN – JOHNNY CASH
  11. GOD – JOHN LENNON
  12. GOD IS A DJ – FAITHLESS
  13. GODBOY – DUTCH UNCLES
  14. GOD KNOWS I’M GOOD – DAVID BOWIE
  15. WRATH OF GOD – CRYSTAL CASTLES
  16. NO GOD – CATE LE BON
  17. GOD BLESS THE BROKEN ROAD – CARRIE UNDERWOOD
  18. GOD ONLY KNOWS – BEACH BOYS
  19. 33 “GOD” – BON IVER
  20. OH GOD – ANNIE LENNOX

GOOD SUNDAY FAYRE.

DALE ‘M’

I AM NOT A NUMBER

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I have always had a clever little intro on my facebook page. Firstly, I had  ‘Yo soy un hombre pastores’… which means I am a shepherd man in spanish. Then when I realised nobody got the reference, ( basically a reference to Jesus) I changed it to, ‘I am not a number’ which is a reference to a sixties tv programme, the Prisoner, which is equally obscure to most people. I looked at it yesterday, when editing my biography on Facebook, and thought what a pretentious twit I was. So I changed it to ‘I am not important’. It was a statement of fact. Nothing clever, but an understanding which I felt was relevant for others to understand too. I didn’t realise it would be regarded as a cry for help…

Since then, I’ve been told I’m very important by my daughter, by my brother and others, and it made me feel sad that my actions had caused worry to others.

Thing is I actually felt it was an important revelation. I’ve always thought I’m special, that the narrative of my life would lead to me reaching an immortality of some sort, either literary, artistic or whatever… then yesterday I realised that none of these things were going to happen. I can’t write, I only have one story in my head, and its the one I can’t write… I have no imagination any more, and I’ve stopped painting, so that’s not going to do it. So, I thought the acceptance of the fact that I’m not important was a release… I don’t have to try and be special any more.

I feel my story has finished. My love has gone. I await the moment when I can join her.

I know I cannot hasten that moment, because to do so would cause too much pain to my family, so I’m prepared to wait patiently for that moment. I do not wish to leave my mark on this world any more. I wanted to change the world, one person at a time… but it is a fatuous idea. The world is beyond  any rational argument. So I say ok, I give up.

Dale beloved of ‘m’

 

 

 

 

 

 

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BROKE PLAYLIST

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BROKE PLAYLIST

  1. WALKING ON BROKEN GLASS – ANNIE LENNOX
  2. BROKEN – BELLY
  3. YOU CAN’T LOSE A BROKEN HEART – BILLIE HOLIDAY
  4. BROKEN LIFE – BLUE FOUNDATION
  5. EVERYTHING IS BROKEN – BOB DYLAN
  6. HOLDING ON FOR LIFE – BROKEN BELLS
  7. LLOYD, I’M READY TO BE HEART-BROKEN – CAMERA OBSCURA
  8. MORNING HAS BROKEN – CAT STEVENS
  9. THE ONE WHO BROKE YOUR HEART – DAVID BYRNE & ST. VINCENT
  10. BROKEN LITTLE SISTER – DEATH IN VEGAS
  11. BROKEN – DEPECHE MODE
  12. LAND OF BROKEN PROMISES – IAMX
  13. BROKEN ENGLISH – MARIANNE FAITHFULL
  14. BROKEN FACE – PIXIES
  15. BROKEN GLASS PARK – SIMPLE MINDS
  16. BROKEN HEART – SPIRITUALIZED
  17. BROKEN HEART BLUES – T.REX
  18. HEAD OVER HEELS/ BROKEN – TEARS FOR FEARS
  19. YOU BROKE MY HEART IN 17 PLACES – TRACEY ULLMAN
  20. YOU BROKE MY HEART – XMAL DEUTSCHLAND

NOT BROKE… JUST BROKEN HEARTED.

DALE ‘M’

 

NATIONAL ALBUM DAY

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DIAMOND DOGS

  1. FUTURE LEGEND
  2. DIAMOND DOGS
  3. SWEET THING
  4. CANDIDATE
  5. SWEET THING (REPRISE)
  6. REBEL REBEL

SIDE TWO

  1. ROCK N ROLL WITH ME
  2. WE ARE THE DEAD
  3. 1984
  4. BIG BROTHER
  5. CHANT OF THE EVER CIRCLING SKELETAL FAMILY

STILL THE BEST ALBUM EVER (IN MY OPINION), I REMEMBER HOW EXCITED I WAS TO OWN IT… PLAYED IT NON-STOP THROUGHOUT MY TEENAGE YEARS.

DALE ‘M’ – YES SHE LOVED IT TOO. XXX

YES WE CAN LOVE

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OH YES WE CAN LOVE

In 2011, my life changed dramatically, I went from a world where I was constantly abraded by my ex-wife, I didn’t fit her model of what a man should be, I lived in an anguished world…every day was a confrontation. Then my Marie moved to my home town to be near me. She was prepared to wait for five years, until my youngest child reached eighteen, for me… That was how much she loved me. I wasn’t prepared to wait! I moved in with her a week later.

My life was totally transformed. We did have five years of having no money. I continued to pay the mortgage for my family’s home. I lived on £20 a month. We survived. Given the frugality of our life, you may think that this caused friction between Marie and myself… But no! We never argued about anything! We were just so grateful to have each other. Living with your soul mate may sound glib, or fanciful, but that is how we felt about each. She called me the love of her life, and she was my saviour. I had always loved her, from 1976 onwards, and always knew we would get back together eventually.

It was  circumstances that had kept us apart… we were both a little crazy, a lot mixed-up as teenagers, but oh yes we could love.

For eight years, she made me feel like I was the most valuable person in the world. I do not regret one moment of our lives together. I always put her first in everything I did, and she likewise always put me first. We valued each other more than anything else in the world. Every time we parted we kissed and said we loved each other. I’m so proud of what we became with each other, given the way we were at sixteen…

We both expected to be dead by 21, we almost tried to push the envelope as far as we could. Now, although I’m alone, I’m not really… She is still within me and without me, I know that this is a bland explanation of a complex concept… But it is how it feels. She does not talk to me, but she guides me from within. We could feel each others thought patterns without words when she was alive, and now, her thought patterns are still there, still gently prodding me.

I miss her so much its a tangible home-sickness. But I know shes here. And all I have to do is quieten my ridiculously over-active mind to find her. There is the rub.

DALE ‘M’

BROTHER PLAYLIST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!

BROTHER PLAYLIST

  1. HE AIN’T HEAVY HE’S MY BROTHER – THE HOLLIES
  2. BROTHER & SISTER – BLUE FOUNDATION
  3. SPACE BROTHER – AIR LIQUIDE
  4. BROTHER – AMY WINEHOUSE
  5. BROTHER – ARCHIVE
  6. IDIOT BROTHER – THE AUTEURS
  7. BEWLEY BROTHERS – DAVID BOWIE
  8. OH BROTHER – FRANK TURNER
  9. BROTHER – GIL SCOTT -HERON
  10. BIG BROTHER – HAZEL O’CONNOR
  11. DREAM BROTHER – JEFF BUCKLEY
  12. THE FABULOUS BINGO BROTHERS – JOHN HALSEY & ZOOT MONEY
  13. DANIEL, MY BROTHER – JOSE FELICIANO
  14. CONFIDE IN ME (CHEMICAL BROTHERS MIX) – KYLIE MINOGUE
  15. 7 CHINESE BROTHERS – REM
  16. OH BROTHER – SOAK
  17. FIREBROTHERS – THIS MORTAL COIL
  18. NO-ONE DANCES QUITE LIKE MY BROTHERS – VAR
  19. BIG BROTHER – DAVID BOWIE
  20. UNDER THE WATER -BROTHER BROWN

MY LITTLE BROTHER IS 48 TODAY… LIKE THE PEAKY BLINDERS, WE LOOK AFTER EACH OTHER ALWAYS, NO MATTER WHAT… THAT’S HOW WE ROLL.

CHEERS BRO !

DALE ‘M’

SHOW PLAYLIST

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SHOW PLAYLIST

  1. SHOW SOME EMOTION – JOAN ARMATRADING
  2. SHOW GIRL – THE AUTEURS
  3. SAME OLD SHOW – BASEMENT JAXX
  4. SHOW – BETH GIBBONS / RUSTIN MAN
  5. MEDICINE SHOW – BIG AUDIO DYNAMITE
  6. AFTERSHOW – THE COURTEENERS
  7. WHEN ANGER SHOWS – THE EDITORS
  8. FREAKSHOW – GHOSTPOET
  9. SHOW ME – INXS
  10. SHOWROOM DUMMIES – KRAFTWERK
  11. PICTURE SHOW – LANTERNS IN THE LAKE
  12. HORRORSHOW – THE LIBERTINES
  13. FREAK SHOW – THE LURKERS
  14. TV SHOW – THE LURKERS
  15. TONITE IT SHOWS – MERCURY REV
  16. WIN PLACE OR SHOW – THE INTRUDERS
  17. SHOW ME – THE PRETENDERS
  18. SHOW ME LOVE – TATU
  19. BIG MEAT SHOW – UNDERWORLD
  20. ROCK SHOW – WINGS

THIS REALITY IS A VIRTUAL SHOW, SEVEN VEILS SLIDING SINISTER…

NEVER BELIEVE THE PEA IS BENEATH THE CUP YOU ARE LED TO BELIEVE…

CHARLATANS ARE ALWAYS AT PLAY

DALE ‘M’

SAID PLAYLIST

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SAID PLAYLIST

  1. SHE SAID SHE SAID – THE BEATLES
  2. MR.WALKER SAID – BIG AUDIO DYNAMITE
  3. HE SAID – CHINESE MAN
  4. JUST A GIRL SHE SAID – DUBSTAR
  5. YOU SAID – THE HORRORS
  6. SOME THINGS ARE BETTER LEFT UNSAID – KETTY LESTER
  7. SHE SAID – LONGPIGS
  8. HA HA SAID THE CLOWN – MANFRED MANN
  9. IS THAT WHAT YOU SAID – MELODY’S ECHO CHAMBER
  10. EASIER SAID THAN DONE – MORCHEEBA
  11. LISTEN TO WHAT THE MAN SAID – WINGS
  12. YOU SAID SOMETHING – PJ HARVEY
  13. SOMETHING THAT I SAID – THE RUTS
  14. SAID I WASNT GONNA TELL NOBODY – SAM & DAVE
  15. ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID – SIMPLE MINDS
  16. JUST LIKE YOU SAID IT WOULD – SINEAD O’CONNOR
  17. ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID – TATU
  18. BRIAN WILSON SAID – TEARS FOR FEARS
  19. AS YOU SAID – WARSAW
  20. LIKE LEILA KHALED SAID – TEARDROP EXPLODES

 

SPEAK TO SOMEONE YOU LOVE EVERY DAY.

DALE ‘M’

 

EMOTIONALLY BANKRUPT

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This is hard, but after sharing thoughts with my friend Kara, I thought I’d try to use an analogy to describe the way we feel.

Imagine you have invested everything you own into a product that provided the panacea for all your ills and you knew in your heart of hearts it was the right thing to do…

Or maybe you invested all your hard earned cash and your credit limits in a property because all the experts told you it was the right thing to do…

And then the economy crashed. And you lose everything. I mean everything.

Well, imagine that instead of it being something as moribund as capital, it is all of your emotional capital… You invested all of your heart and soul in one person… She/He received all of your love and future capital, and then they crashed!

All of your emotional capital has been lost… And I mean completely lost, no refunds!

You cannot take that love back. You have lost everything.

That is how it feels when you lose the one person you love more than life itself…

Emotionally bankrupt. Instead of living in a mansion of love, you are now living in cardboard city… Living in the doorways of society, but always separate, always without pure joy, without pure love.

Thats how it feels. Bankrupt. And if you can get to grips with that then you are a better person than me. I am struggling with this doorway life!

Dale beloved of ‘M’