MORE PICTURES OF MY ANGEL AND A TALE

I left school in May, 1976… It was the long hot summer, it was the summer when I discovered what that thing was all about… For three months I was engaged to a girl called Jane. I had failed 9 o’levels, due to the fact I’d not gone to school much in the last 18 months… I’d discovered how to bunk off shortly after my Brother had died in an accident, and after a while it became easier to not go to school than it was to go… An awkward meeting with the deputy head… In the eleventh hour I capitulated and went back to take my O’levels, but surprisingly to no avail, as even rudimentary schooling requires some attendance. Given that 1976 was a long hot summer, and I had no prospect of qualifications, I found it some what difficult to find a job. I happily took the £7.59 a week dole money, and lived off the hog. Booze, fags and the delights of nervous sexual adventure.  By the time the results came out, and Jane was no more,( leaving the sedentary delights of my amorous endeavours for the better prospects of some guy that was a machinist at Enots) I discovered that the world outside school was not going to welcome me with open arms. I therefore had to come up with a better plan. I persuaded my school to take me back to do resits, and then A’levels.

I had the best of intentions. Then Marie happened.

I used to go home for lunch, as I lived near the school… I was feeling rather miserable a walked back into the school one September lunchtime… I was being berated by parents and teachers alike as I was still not reaching the required standard… I must work harder the familiar refrain shot at me from all sides… To be honest, I had a pretty nihilistic opinion on life and schooling in particular.

Anyway, I walked into the school around the back of the Sports Hall, where all the smokers used to hide out. I was hoping to cadge a fag. Suddenly I stopped dead in my tracks,there before me stood a beautiful tall dark girl, a girl I had never met before. She had been in the school for two years, but I had not, so that’s probably why I had missed her.

She was stood chatting to my mate, Morgan who was looking censoriously at the rogue cigarette, anxious not to be caught in the cross-fire should a teacher suddenly appear.

I smiled at Morgan and said Hi. I looked at the girl and said,

“give us a drag”. She smiled and passed the cigarette, I took two long drags and then went to give it her back, just as Mr.Evans appeared around  the corner. I cupped the cigarette behind my back, but to no avail. I got a clip around the ear, as he said, “If you want to smoke do it off school premises!”

So, taking him at his word, I turned around and began to walk off the premises. The teacher stood there non-plussed, and as I walked out of the gates I heard a voice call from behind me,

“Hey wait up…”

She, the immortal she, the only one, she ran up beside me.

“Where are you going?”

“Fuck this!”, I said, “I don’t know why I fucking bothered coming back, they still just treat you like a kid.”

“You Want to come back to mine? Have a coffee or something?”

“Who are you? I’ve never seen you here before?”

“I’m Marie. Morgan’s told me all about you.”

” Yeah, I just the talk of the fucking town… Renegade black sheep!”

We went back to her house, a funny pointy roof house I used to call the Witch’s Cauldron.

We sat and talked all afternoon, drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes. She introduced me to The Naked Ape by Desmond Morris. She had me read aloud the chapter on Sex. I sat in an armchair, reading aloud from this bloody book, whilst she sat and my feet, stroking my inner thigh… I thought I was in heaven, and that she was some kind of Goddess, the most exotic and beautiful person I had ever met…

And 42 years later she still is!

or was…

God I miss you so much my beloved!

Always yours

Dale

 

 

 

LOST PLAYLIST

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LOST PLAYLIST

SINCE I LOST MY BABY – THE TEMPTATIONS

YOU’RE LOST LITTLE GIRL – SIOUXSIE & THE BANSHEES

LOST GIRL – BLUE FOUNDATION

YOU’VE LOST THAT LOVING FEELING – RIGHTEOUS BROTHERS

LOST CAUSE – BECK

ISLAND OF LOST SOULS – BLONDIE

LOST – BLUE FOUNDATION

THE LOST DAY – BRIAN ENO

LOST IN THE SUPERMARKET – THE CLASH

THEFT AND WANDERING AROUND LOST – COCTEAU TWINS

LOST CONTINENT – COMSAT ANGELS

LOVE IS LOST – DAVID BOWIE

SO YOU SAY YOU’VE LOST YOUR BABY – DEATH IN VEGAS

YOU’RE LOST LITTLE GIRL – THE DOORS

LOST WORKER BEE – ELBOW

IF I LOST YOU – GARBAGE

DON’T GET LOST IN HEAVEN- GORILLAZ

LOST HIGHWAY – JEFF BUCKLEY

SHE’S LOST CONTROL – JOY DIVISION

L.S.F. – KASABIAN

LOST ONES – LAURYN HILL

IN SEARCH OF LOST INNOCENCE – LISA GERRARD

LOST MYSELF – THE LONGPIGS

LOST IN ART – PERE UBU

LOST NORTHERN STAR -TARJA TURUNEN

 

GREAT TO GET SO MANY OF MARIE’S FAVOURITE ARTISTS

DALE XXX

 

 

MY ANGEL

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This massive feather just appeared beside me as I was informing everyone of my Marie’s funeral arrangements. I know most of my followers on here are from all over the world, but if anyone knows me and follows me, the funeral will be at 2.40 pm Monday 28th January, at Crewe Crematorium, Cheshire.

She reminded me this morning of a ritual we did when we first moved in together. We went and plucked Holly and ivy leaves then shredded them together and split them in to two silk bags, I know this sounds very pagan, old magic… But we have both kept our bags on or around our person every day since… She plucked this memory out for me this morning as I was feeling very sorry for myself and very lonely. She was showing me that she is still here, the ying to my yang. We are two halves of a whole. Nothing will ever change that!

Live in love

Dale xxx

BEAUTIFUL PLAYLIST

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BEAUTY PLAYLIST

At My Most Beautiful – REM

Beauties Can Die – M83

Beautiful – Moby

Beautiful – Portishead

Beautiful – Carole King

Beautiful Boy – Kelli Ali

Beautiful Boy (Darling Boy) – John Lennon & Yoko Ono

Beautiful Brown Eyes – Solomon Burke

Beautiful Burn Out – Underworld

Beautiful Child – Fleetwood Mac

Beautiful Daughter – The Move

Beautiful Day – U2

Beautiful Feeling – PJ Harvey

Beautiful Girl – INXS

Beauiful Head – The Courteeners

Beautiful Object – Glass Candy

Beautiful Ones – Suede

Beauty & The Beast – David Bowie

Beauty’s Only Skin deep – The Temptations

It’s Not Too Beautiful – The Beta Band

Oh Beautiful Town – IAMX

The Beautiul Ones – Prince & The Revolution

The Great Beautician In the Sky – Magazine

The Sleeping Beauty – Tchaikovsky

So beautiful my heart aches just to think of her, my Marie xxx

Dale

TALES FROM TEARDROP MANOR

just found two pictures of Marie in an old handbag, one is pre- israel, the other is on a beach in Egypt just after leaving the kibbutz… so beautiful to find a picture with her hair untamed… and one of her enjoying the beach looking gorgeous! You can probably understand why I have loved her for 42 years….

Bagged up Marie’s clothes for charity shop… Dismantled her wardrobe, because its beyond repair, took it downstairs and into the garden, ready to take to the skip when i’ve got a vehicle big enough to take it. i’m absolutely shattered, physically and emotionally, also found my birthday presents, already prepared and Phoenix’s birthday present! God How I am going to live up to her standards?

Seven bags of clothes and shoes… Who knew she needed so many clothes?

I spend £10 a year on my clothes, whether I need it or not!

Live in love

Dale xxx

ANGEL PLAYLIST

 

 

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ANGEL PLAYLIST

Unfucktheworld – Angel Olsen

Leave Me Alone – Angelic Upstarts

Twin Peaks Theme – Angelo Badalamenti

My Boyfriend’s Back – The Angels

Angel is Broken – Atlas Sound

Angel – Belly

The Angel & The Fool – Broken Bells

Angel Eyes – Bryan Ferry

In Our Angelhood – Cocteau Twins

Missing In Action – Comsat Angels

Pretty little Angel Eyes – Curtis Lee

Angel – Danse Society

New Angels Of promise – David Bowie

Angel – Depeche Mode

Real Life (Angel) – Elbow

Angel – Fleetwood Mac

Angel – Kirsty MacColl

Angel – Massive Attack

Be My Angel – Mazzy Star

Angel Of the Morning – The Pretenders

Angels With Dirty Faces – sham 69

Seeing Out The Angel – Simple Minds

Destroying Angel – Sneaker Pimps

Thank You For Sending me an Angel – Talking Heads

Angel Fingers – Wizzard

The Black Angel’s Death Song – Velvet Underground

Angel sits on my shoulder.

Dale

FUTURE DAZE

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WHERE DO I GO NOW?

The future was measured out as a spell,

Full of amazing adventures shared,

Just as the last decade as been…

Beautiful times …

Beautiful because they were shared…

Each place we went

Each event we enjoyed,

were always twofold

because they were shared!

The future I envisioned,

Had only one central tenet…

And that was you My Marie!

Everything I can do,

Will have no meaning,

Without your smile…

Without your love.

You gave meaning to everything…

Even God!

So where do I go Now?

I have no idea,

The light has left my life,

I am in the dark…

The God you made me believe in…

Has departed,

Reneged on the deal we made…

You made me see reason,

But all reason has gone.

I honestly have no idea what comes next,

I will keep doing all the myriad of things I have to…

The official tasks of the bereaved,

But after that…

I have no plan.

Please tell me where do I go now?

Dale